Another beautiful, sunny (but cold) day today, with a great time of Godness in church and in various conversations. Think my bro once said something about God existing in the interstices between people and that's so true. In relationships where things aren't entirely peachy keen, especially. Learning abit more about what love really is - timely, considering Valentine's just went by - and that it should stop being able fitting other people into my agenda, but about self-giving, about sacrifice, but not when that becomes a source of pride in itself. It's about... humbling myself even when I think I'm in the right. About opening my heart up to receive and accept someone's love and service, even if I feel I don't merit it. About being patient, and always looking out for the interests of others. Love does not -
"envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres." (1 Cor 13:4-7)
Another beautiful day of being assured of God's love and presence even when I don't necessarily 'feel' it. Alv told me about a sermon he heard, about the pastor recounting an experience in preparing his son's milk bottle. The baby just kept wailing and wailing and wailing, and the pastor felt so frustrated he couldn't get through to the baby and reassure him that 'Hey my child, the milk is coming, it's coming. I'm preparing it right now.' And so many times in God's seeming silence I just lack the trust that He's there, He's already doing something... and that the milk is coming.
The love of God... is making Alv and I feel so incredibly close even though he's away. There's also a sense of growing love, dedication and joy in our relationship, which is incredible. Cemented by a love he first experiences in God, then relays to me. 'Love your wives as Christ loved the Church', it's said. A clearer idea of what that means now. Amazing.
Love. 'twas the theme for open mic organised by OCF. Strung together a list of songs and came up with something random but which meant alot to me. Didn't sing quite well as I would like to, and guitar wasn't plugged in, but had a lot of fun! And was invited to sing at Gangwei's charity concert next week so that's cool. Check out my lovely Cort MR740fx baby :D
