thinking, rethinking, rethought. then I stopped thinking and just enjoyed the ride, like a little duck paddling along with the stream. just one term and perspectives have changed so much; just 12 weeks and things feel a lot more settled, a lot more steady - not circumstances, not situations, not people; it's a silent flame of strength that God's kindling and nurturing, growing. steadying. I know what I want now, at least a lot more than what I used to think; have seen God provide in miraculous ways, not in explosions of visions and fireworks, but in the surest most quietest ways; have seen more and more of how lovely, how faithful... and how steady God is.
and I don't have to run amock with my hair flying in all directions, don't have to sob empty tears, don't have to dry them on a sleeve that spurns; because He loves. He loves. :)
more healing received.
such sweetness. never would I have expected such an amazing blessing to come into my life, never. my heart warms, no, convulses, and throbs, at the awesome power that God has ushered into my life; a man who has shown me what Christ's selflessness, sacrifice, strength, wisdom and sense of duty might mean on this earth.
happy 2008 to all of you. :) thanks for the birthday wishes, they're muchly appreciated -hugs all-
