Wow.
These 2 days have been jam-packed with activities and it's been really fulfilling, only that my body's been taking a toll because I couldn't sleep last night and ended up having only 3.5 hours of sleep before another full day of activities today. Thank God I'm not doing too badly considering I'm a 10-hour-sleep person, but I know I really should turn in now.
Yesterday was great. Went to a friend's and did some sharing and praying, then went for SLOBS (bible study) and OMNI. As usual was really anxious before singing, but I'm glad it went really well, and lots of friends were really encouraging. Thanks guys. :)
Still cherishing a dream somehow that I'll be able to sing and write, and do a gospel tour or something. but it seems so impossible and taxing that I don't dare think twice about it. Nevertheless God's a God of the impossible and there's no saying what the future may hold...
cliche, cliche.
Yes, so the fun part wasn't really the singing and playing, it was the mingling around. I realised that coming here has really opened up the social person in me. Well I've always sorta liked mixing with people, but coming here has really sharpened conversational skills, and opened my heart up to lots of people with whom I share many differences, whether it's first language, ethnicity, backgrounds, etc.
And suddenly I have a heart for the Chinese people... Really surprised that I get along with them pretty well. The Brit sistas and brothers I have are so so lovely too. Ah. Blessed. :)
Yeah... going to Newcastle for the Friends International seminar really opened my heart up to doing ministry in China. Street kids. School. It suddenly struck me (almost literally) how significant that I speak Chinese and I'm an English major (no Gabriel, not in the military). Oh goodness. I didn't realise how important that can be in China! Silly me. Yeah. Hm. My mom will be so elated to hear this...
Yeah so I'm currently half-dead from fatigue (sleep-deprivation) and car sickness. Perpetually retching on the car because there were just so many windy roads tho it took only 2 hours ish to come back to York. Hm.
But anyway. I'm starting to see a whole new field in my line of vision, just before me. New pastures I've never considered or thought of, new reasons to put my own selfish pursuits (e.g. family or career) on hold, or postpone them indefinitely. It might be the novelty of it that's motivating me to do so, but suddenly I just feel like running out onto the mission field mindlessly, and spend my days and nights in the fields of oblivion. But naw I know there's got to be a season of equipping and preparation, and I'm so glad God gave me York to learn a little here and a little there... right now I'm just so happy the way things are turning out in service and interaction with people. And no, it's not for me, but for You, You, You alone.
Radka Toneff's dulcet tones lull me to a paradise of velvet waters...
