It's the end of another Thurs...
Right from the beginning of this week I was looking forward to this day because it'll mean that my essay is over and done with and I have relatively less readings to do for the next week. It also means that there's only 1 week left to departure... and to home.
I'm kinda excited to go home, yeah, but it's pretty much dulled by the fact that I haven't received my ticket. Ailin's mom sent it by registered mail quite some time ago and it should have been here since days ago? Maybe even a week ago. I don't know. The fact that it's not here is pretty disconcerting. Where's my ticket.... :(
I really want to go home.
But, sigh. If it's God's will and I'm meant to go home, I'll go home. Otherwise... I'll stay here. Oh well.
Slept at 3ish again this morning 'cuz I was rushing the essay. Feel quite jaded now but I shouldn't sleep because I know I'll never wake up.
Looking forward to the weekend. It means I can play. And there's the carol service in the minster on sunday!
Being here really opens you up. And it definitely raises your level of tolerance towards many things. All my friends from about sec sch to JC have been *relatively* guai... I mean, they're not exceptionally deviant or liberal and stuff. But here you get extremes... I suppose in NUS or singapore unis it may be the same as well, I don't know. It's like, I was heading off for my seminar this morning and I know the Finnish girl has a seminar at the same time, so I went towards her room to call her. Then I heard voices in the shower... yes, voices. Male and female voice. They were talking normally and stuff.. but the shower was running, so either they were showering together or... ok, I don't want to think anymore. I was like, "whattttt...?" when I turned away and headed out the main door... but. Yeah. Then later on I found out that another seminar mate of mine used to live with her boyfriend and stuff... I suppose it's pretty normal for them. But it suddenly struck me that people around me could be far more liberal than I thought. Silly, right? I should've known earlier. But yeah. Without a God, without any strict sense of "moral" discipline (which sounds hokey for skeptics actually), I really wonder what kind of relationships couples can have... it's quite scary. I remember kor telling me that a girl without religion is terrifying.. because he's had this friend who sleeps around and stuff. Aye, what're relationships coming to? People seem to believe that any notions of purity and responsibility in a relationship are dead... or at least that is being portrayed to me now. Sigh...
God is good. All the time.
